thatssorara

Fuck you Humber Faculty, I still think you guys are Racist & Sexist and feel extremely threatend by me. Your Professors suck (which explains why you guys are College Professors & not University Professors). I’m going back to school next week whether you like it or not. oh and i’m getting lawyer so i can sue your asses for making me miss two weeks of school. Iuno, Maybe because the old bitches on the faculty are jealous of me. You guys are dumb. The bitches on the faculty are old and fat. But yeah, the Dean is hot (which is probably why he’s the nicest). All the other whores are wack. and Ivor (one of my professors can’t even teach properly). You guys are suppose to be professors? hmm, no wonder you are a College professor. The plan for me is to go back to school next week, get extentions on ALL my assignments , then go to University next year (where the real professors are). Fuck Humber. I’m thinking of going to Ryerson or UofT for Journalism (iuno just any good University).Prove everyone wrong

Dumb, Dumb, Da-da-daaah.
- Attention Whore, out. oOoO

Me and my roommate Gabriela decided to make a vision board, it was very therapeutic, it has all our dreams and shit on it.

So yeah here’s mine up close

on it it says “I wanna be the Lady Gaga of Journalism” pretty much, i wanna be a slutty Journalist when i grow up.

Later on that day I went to see my therapist Cheri and stole a FASHION Magazine from her office.
I don’t know i think it’s about time i let my therapist go, i feel we are not on the same page anymore (hence the reason why i stole the magazine from her office). The whole thing with the Humber Faculty thing is still going on and yeah, long story short – i got in trouble for sending sexual suggestive emails to my professor and yeah. I also threatened to hit this kid in the face with my Mac-book in class, but then again that’s another tale for another time

I really want to get into acting. I’m tired of thinking “oh my parents were never really supportive of me so therefore I should give up” like no, this is something I really want to do.I want to start off doing background work and commercials, ads and then slowly move on to actual roles. The only experience I have being on TV is being on the show MTV Creeps. It’s funny because that opportunity was given to me randomly. Some girl in my Journalism program apparently told the producer about my Facebook & Twitter account, and then the MTV producer tweeted me. To this day I’m not sure whether the girl in my program who told them about my twitter genuinely wanted me to be on TV or if it was her just her plan to expose me. Iuno, either way I got 5 minutes of fame (It came to the point where ppl started coming to my old job and wanted to take pictures with me). It was a cool experience even though I didn’t get paid. I would honestly do it all again – but I’m sure I can do better then MTV Creeps. Maybe even get my own reality show one day who knows. I pretty much had to leave home to follow my dreams, I feel that my family is not really supportive of me and try and put me down a lot over time I had enough and just left (I mean, I still go to my mom’s house when I’m hungry and want to use the internet, but still).

So, here I am in Starbucks once again using their free wi-fi, and once again I am not paying for shit. Earlier today I went to Icon Model Management downtown and the agent dude was like “Your portfolio is weak, and you should lose weight off your hips” lose weight off of what? my bones? i’m already a stick :\ . Not only that but the dude is like “I really love your look, it’s funky, its fresh… BUT for a photoshoot with our agency is gonna be $300 for the photoshoot and another $350 for comp-cards & to put you on our website. So i sat in his office smiling and agreeing with him but in my head thinking (i’m not paying for shit). “Modeling is a very competitive business, and your lower half of your body is bigger then the upper half, which means you are not perfect, how are you suppose to compete with the millions of girls in toronto that want to be models”. Well, first of all I doubt that their are millions of girls in toronto second of all, I don’t see modelling as a competition. I mean, its something that I really want to do and therefore I don’t see it as competition. It’s the same with Journalism, Journalism as you may know is a VERY competition field to get into but then again it is something I really want to do with my life and so I don’t see it as competitive. I think that those who see everything as a competition end up losing anyway. As for the modelling i’m just gonna go to photographers that I know won’t charge me money and then build my portfolio. I just found it hilarious that the modelling agent was telling me that i was disproportioned YET he wasn’t in the best shape ever :\ Other then that, i’m staying my ass in school at least that i don’t have to pay for.. oh.. wait.. :\

Don’t be insecure if your heart is pure, you’re still black to me if your an “Oreo-Cookie”, baby.

Right when you think Highschool is over – you come to college only to realize two things:

1)  College is exactly like Highschool except you’re paying more money to have people talk shit about you.

2) If you’re not a socially awkward pretentious asshole and in a Journalism program your classmates will shun you completely – sorry for having SOME personality :\ (wait okay, i am kind of an asshole, but still you know what i mean.)

At first this use to really bother me especially in first semester, because everyone wants to be liked. Now, it’s like I still do want to be liked, but i’m actually loving the feeling of being left-out or “hated” it feels good, because I feel superior to my classmates. While they’re all using big words to try and sound smarter then they are, I just talk how I normally talk and all my profs appreciate me for being myself. To be honest I can say that i probably only like one person from my program, everyone else just seems so, i don’t know, just.. no. I sent an email to my favourite high school teacher of all time “Ms.Anwer” – i think the reason she was my favourite is because everyone thought she was a bitch and I’ve always wanted to be like her She’s really smart, funny, out-spoken and good at what she does, which is why people consider her a bitch. but yeah, i love her <3

So yeah, that Email made me feel so much better because sometimes I feel like giving up on Journalism because I feel i don’t use big words like the people in my class, but then again I know that being creative and confident will get me far (that’s if i don’t get kicked out or arrested but yeah ). “Remember that many truly talented, artistic and famous people were often the ‘odd ones out’. Being different usually makes you better.. So be GLAD you’re not fitting in — it means you’re the real thing.” Whenever I feel down, i’ll read her email over and over

- AttentionWhore, Out <3 oOoO

So today my Journalism program went on a field trip to the CTV (Much Music) building. I wasn’t even sure if i was allowed to go because it was for Dan’s class and apparently i’m suspended from that class. Well, they didn’t say I couldn’t not go so yeah, I showed up a little late but yeah. we took a tour of the building and after we got to go on set on New Music Live (a show I never watch because I don’t have cable but yeah.)

 Me and the Host Jesse – the two girls who i met were drooling over him, i had no idea who he was until today.

Jesse and the beautiful blonde chick (I forget her name, but yeah she was hot) they were both looked like life-sized barbie dolls.
me and Phoebe (one of the hosts) she’s really cool, her sweater had a tounge (it would be cool if the sweater licked me in other places but yeah.)

Me and one of the producer’s. He was a lot of fun, was dancing the whole time but when one of the girls asked to make a vid of him that’s when he stopped dancing

Overall I had a REALLY fun day, was dancing for most of the show, and stole the spotlight, as usual

- Attention Whore, out <3 oOoO